I have discovered that I am a perfectionist.
This is no surprise to those closest to me!
Actually, I have known this for many years but it is only in recent times I have explored more about this facet of my character.
It means I procrastinate...
... a lot!
It means that if I can't get something done to the highest level I expect of myself, I am less likely to do it.
Take housework for example (if I must!)
Unless I have the opportunity to dust, polish, hoover and mop in one go, I will often choose not to do any of it. Because unless all aspects of cleaning are completed, the job's not done properly, right?
Whereas someone else in my household will be content to just whizz the hoover round in one quick window of opportunity and flick a duster round in another. Because a little is better than nothing at all, right?
This is not about who is the better cleaner in my house!
It's the word 'content'.
It's important.
There is nothing wrong with my perfectionist nature. The desire to do a task well is inherently good. However, I think I am likely to miss opportunities. And things just take longer. Some opportunities are dull (housework!). And some have the potential to be fun - and who wants to miss out on that?
So, I made myself a goal for 2020. Well, not so much a 2020 goal as a Christmas Holiday goal.
A website.
This website.
It made good progress during the Christmas break but not completed until another 2 weeks had passed (sigh) - a small dent in my perfectionist nature but still a good goal tick!
And it IS an opportunity.
And it WAS fun.
I spent HOURS (of course I did, I am a perfectionist!) working it all out and designing it.
It was a learning curve - I am a novice.
I had to take photos.
Then I realised I didn't have some key piece of jewellery to photograph after my
pre-Christmas sales.
So I had to make those pieces in order to photograph them in order to upload them...
you get the idea: one job leads to another, which leads to another and so on!
But finally, the day arrived when I was more or less willing to go for it.
The problem is, there was more I could do before I took the plunge.
But there will ALWAYS be more I can do...
...so do I jump in?
...or sit on the side?
You already know the answer - you're reading the evidence!
It's a work in progress.
It's on a journey.
It will change over time.
There will be mistakes.
It will go wrong.
It will learn from those mistakes.
Someone wise once said 'you can't steer a ship if it is in dry dock'.
It has to be in water.
And it has to be moving for the rudder to be able to steer it...however slowly that might be.
So, Poema's website is a work in progress.
It's in motion so I can steer it.
I can say the same of myself:
I am a work in progress.
I am on a journey.
I will change over time.
I will make mistakes.
I will go wrong.
I will learn from those mistakes.
We can all say the same, can't we?
We're all on a voyage: sometimes it's calm and smooth sailing; other times it is stormy; we might lose our way, take a detour, misread the map or go the wrong way.
But we're taking chances, exploring, discovering and we're on an adventure.
Underlined quite firmly in my bible is Philippians 4:13
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'
...including building a website!
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